memories….

Just got to bask in a bunch of them. Went onto an old Roblox group I used to help manage, and joined the discord server. Somehow it’s still around, even after we closed it almost 7 years ago. It’s crazy looking back, aw fuck I’m such a nostalgic fuck. but anyway. it’s crazy looking back. That group would end up sending me down a path that affected who my friends were for over half a decade. Only just in the past year or so has my circle broken out of that chain, and even that’s sorta debatable. All because I tapped a few buttons on my iPad and joined some random girls’ roblox game… And of all the games to form a chain like that… it was “crystal dance academy”.

British Airways fizzled out after 4 years and never went beyond ryan. I never branched off from stella directly, but I never made any effort to press into her circles and I feel like she kept me at arm’s length looking back. We talked for about half a decade and then she cut contact with me at the end of 21. I have some ideas as to why but that’s not really relevant and it doesn’t really matter. I met katie through the same group though, and the people I met through that path persist even today. Even meeting two irl. I feel like that chain may be starting to burn out though, unless you consider me becoming a weeb a part of that path, then it had an effect on every relationship I currently have.

And honestly, that’s so beautiful.

There was another guy from that group who happened to be active when I rejoined the discord. Was the security guard we had all those years ago. Dude had a total crush on stella and I guess he dated her at one point… she never mentioned it to me and It’s not like I can ask her anymore, but I don’t blame him for going after her. She was pretty cute. Supposedly he kept talking to Katie after me and stella fell out with her. Guess she got cancer and then went dark. Her account is deleted today so I can’t really dig through old messages to try and find out if she made it. And honestly, I feel like that stone is better left unturned. I hope she made it though, she deserves that chance. (went back and checked old messages, supposedly she lied about it, don’t care if she did, I wish her the best)

Mae also deleted her account at some point, she was a fun character. loved talking to her. heh. Gaesa.

Rose seems to be doing alright. At least from what I’ve heard secondhand. I’ve avoided looking into her at all out of respect.

But yeah, i guess that guy comes back to the cda discord every once in a while because it makes him sad. Reminds him of a simpler time, a simpler Roblox. To think a lot of the people on Roblox today weren’t even born yet when that group lived and died…. wow.

I don’t really get sad though, looking back makes me so happy.

as for me…. heh. I am a (let’s be honest here) bi weeb whos going through a minor gender question spin. Me from that time would be disappointed. But I don’t think they’d be surprised. They did expect to have a partner by this point though… sorry to disappoint on that one buddy.

I wouldn’t change anything, well maybe I would, id try to be less creepy. Something I feel I learned a bit too late (wtf was wrong with you at rowing)

Ok so now on the generic journal shit.

Today was pretty typical, got my script refilled. They didn’t bother pulling blood because I’ve been off all month. tried a new pharm so hopefully, this actually gets filled this time. Tried out some more bows too. I started this out wanting a 250-dollar bow with my employee discount and now I’m considering spending 600 on one. fun.

Finally ordered the stuff for two projects I’ve been working on for the past 2 years. I just said fuck it and bought a smelter prebuilt on amazon. they had a full kit for like 125. also got all the stuff I needed to clone the oyster mushrooms. I’m thinking about buying a Fischl cosplay, part because i wanna crossdress and part, because the con is coming up., would be another like, 150 bucks for something cheap.

Onion bought me Terraia, not a huge fan of the game honestly. I tried it back in 2013 and didn’t like it much then either. I was also kinda distracted most of the time though. Feel like such a shitty friend aaa. I love playing Factorio with her.

but…uh.. yeah!
Minecrafty mix: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OmXJqHe1c2Q

Goodnight ❤️

-a