I think my fuse is getting a lot shorter.

I feel like I’m about to rip someone’s face off, we had to set ge today, and I made the pipe. basic stuff. After some girl who I feel like is an overachiever made a comment about how “good job on ur pipes,” and I honestly got more offended than I should have. Like. Why the fuck are you congratulating me? It’s a fucking pipe, do you think I’m stupid? I kinda just gave her a dirty look, waved her off, and said: “Yeah… ok.” It’s a fucking 1MC pipe, do you think I’m stupid? Honestly, she might. Her asking my ASVAB the day before caused a similar but less intense reaction. Another guy saying “you’re doing great” when i was doing something simple also pissed me off. Normally, I wouldn’t think anything of this, but I’ve been really short-tempered these last few days.

I’ve had a lot of shit going on, and I’m really jaded. I have some people saying I should expect orders to school, others saying it won’t be till next year, and nobody wants to give me a hard answer one way or the other. I’ve worked 3 16 hour days back to back, and when we get underway in a little over a week, all I have to look forward to is two weeks of messcooking… if I even get underway. I feel like by telling my supervisor about my theory, I fucked myself because now I’ll perpetually be in a “we don’t know how long you’ll be here, so we won’t invest any quals into you” situation because I could genuinely leave at any time. When people ask when I am leaving, I say between 2 days and two years because that’s the honest truth. I just feel like im perpetually tired and annoyed. im also still sick.

-a