I take that back. I think I do know why I’m less forthcoming… I spent two years with a group that told me how worthless I was day in and day out. How I would never find anyone and if ever did It’s because they have no other choice. I think because of that I always feel like people aren’t being honest with me. And I want them to prove that they want to be around me. Unfortunately that doesn’t usually happen and I just end up unintentionally pushing them away.