Here we are I guess.
I’m sitting in the shower at the meps hotel, it’s a pretty decent one in downtown Portland. I figured it’d be some shitty airport hotel but it’s not bad. I forgot what I last wrote here so I’ll just write freely I think. I’m also on my phone so it’s gonna be fun.
I swore in today, so yeah I guess I’m government property now. It’s was a really uneventful lead up, took a last minute vacation to Sedona with my dad and sister, flew home (took a Waymo to the airport was really cool) and now I’m here. Leaving my previous workplace was also kinda uneventful. I got my leave approved on their third party app thing and that was all there was to it. No goodbyes or anything like that, I’m just gone now. I’m still being scheduled for some reason though. Discount still works too, went in to buy some underwear last minute and the lady was like “you still work here?”
First night at the hotel was mostly me waiting around, lot of marines. I only spoke to marines the entire time, one didn’t even know which branch he was joining. They threw one in my room at like 9:30 which was pretty annoying but he seemed friendly. Dude was going infantry which I don’t really understand but all the power to him I guess.
Meps was mostly just waiting around and getting my tickets. The swear in ceremony was pretty daunting though but also not. I kinda thought signing my life away would like, feel heavier; but it didn’t. Then we kinda just waited around for 8 hours. I watched some guys play pool but I didn’t join. Lunch was also better than it was last time. Panera like always. Apparently I forgot to put on deodorant but the uso had some for free, it was women’s deodorant but only shit did it work, it was PUNGENT. After a bit they called us out and we left to go back to the hotel. Had my mom pick me up after that and we went out to eat.
Dad has Covid so he didn’t come but we went to a brewery nearby, I had some mushroom pasta I already forgot the name of, but it was pretty good. As good as any for a last meal I suppose. She gave me a letter too, I think I’ll read it tomorrow morning.
It’s a pretty odd feeling, knowing that I don’t really have a choice anymore, even though I feel deep down that it’s the right one. My main fear is washing out of basic. The humiliation would really get to me and I really don’t want that to happen. It’s not like I really have anywhere else to go either. In a lot of ways this is kinda my Hail Mary. Especially considering how last semester went.
I had taken my nail test 3 days ago and failed it just barely (69%) and got wrecked, hoping to retake it when I get back. Also had one of my wisdoms ripped out, it’s somewhat healed now but I really don’t want to risk the clot coming out, apparently the pain is off the charts.
Maybe I’ll write again tomorrow maybe I won’t, we’ll see.
Goodnight ❤️
I should probably goon one last time ngl. (Already did) (hour long shower yay!!!)