memories\u2026.<\/p>\n
Just got to bask in a bunch of them. Went onto an old Roblox group I used to help manage, and joined the discord server. Somehow it\u2019s still around, even after we closed it almost 7 years ago. It\u2019s crazy looking back, aw fuck I\u2019m such a nostalgic fuck. but anyway. it\u2019s crazy looking back. That group would end up sending me down a path that affected who my friends were for over half a decade. Only just in the past year or so has my circle broken out of that chain, and even that\u2019s sorta debatable. All because I tapped a few buttons on my iPad and joined some random girls\u2019 roblox game\u2026 And of all the games to form a chain like that\u2026 it was \u201ccrystal dance academy\u201d.<\/p>\n
British Airways fizzled out after 4 years and never went beyond ryan. I never branched off from stella directly, but I never made any effort to press into her circles and I feel like she kept me at arm\u2019s length looking back. We talked for about half a decade and then she cut contact with me at the end of 21. I have some ideas as to why but that\u2019s not really relevant and it doesn\u2019t really matter. I met katie through the same group though, and the people I met through that path persist even today. Even meeting two irl. I feel like that chain may be starting to burn out though, unless you consider me becoming a weeb a part of that path, then it had an effect on every relationship I currently have.<\/p>\n
And honestly, that\u2019s so beautiful.<\/p>\n
There was another guy from that group who happened to be active when I rejoined the discord. Was the security guard we had all those years ago. Dude had a total crush on stella and I guess he dated her at one point\u2026 she never mentioned it to me and It\u2019s not like I can ask her anymore, but I don\u2019t blame him for going after her. She was pretty cute. Supposedly he kept talking to Katie after me and stella fell out with her. Guess she got cancer and then went dark. Her account is deleted today so I can\u2019t really dig through old messages to try and find out if she made it. And honestly, I feel like that stone is better left unturned. I hope she made it though, she deserves that chance. (went back and checked old messages, supposedly she lied about it, don\u2019t care if she did, I wish her the best)<\/p>\n
Mae also deleted her account at some point, she was a fun character. loved talking to her. heh. Gaesa.<\/p>\n
Rose seems to be doing alright. At least from what I\u2019ve heard secondhand. I\u2019ve avoided looking into her at all out of respect.<\/p>\n
But yeah, i guess that guy comes back to the cda discord every once in a while because it makes him sad. Reminds him of a simpler time, a simpler Roblox. To think a lot of the people on Roblox today weren\u2019t even born yet when that group lived and died\u2026. wow.<\/p>\n
I don\u2019t really get sad though, looking back makes me so happy.<\/p>\n
as for me\u2026. heh. I am a (let\u2019s be honest here) bi weeb whos going through a minor gender question spin. Me from that time would be disappointed. But I don\u2019t think they\u2019d be surprised. They did expect to have a partner by this point though\u2026 sorry to disappoint on that one buddy.<\/p>\n
I wouldn\u2019t change anything, well maybe I would, id try to be less creepy. Something I feel I learned a bit too late (wtf was wrong with you at rowing)<\/p>\n
Ok so now on the generic journal shit.<\/p>\n
Today was pretty typical, got my script refilled. They didn\u2019t bother pulling blood because I\u2019ve been off all month. tried a new pharm so hopefully, this actually gets filled this time. Tried out some more bows too. I started this out wanting a 250-dollar bow with my employee discount and now I\u2019m considering spending 600 on one. fun.<\/p>\n
Finally ordered the stuff for two projects I\u2019ve been working on for the past 2 years. I just said fuck it and bought a smelter prebuilt on amazon. they had a full kit for like 125. also got all the stuff I needed to clone the oyster mushrooms. I\u2019m thinking about buying a Fischl cosplay, part because i wanna crossdress and part, because the con is coming up., would be another like, 150 bucks for something cheap.<\/p>\n
Onion bought me Terraia, not a huge fan of the game honestly. I tried it back in 2013 and didn\u2019t like it much then either. I was also kinda distracted most of the time though. Feel like such a shitty friend aaa. I love playing Factorio with her.<\/p>\n