20:39 10\/13\/23<\/p>\n
It rained today, not heavy or anything but it was raining most of the day. I enjoy this time of year, it’s cool and wet. They had me help in other departments today, camping and hunting. But mostly hunting. It was a nice change and I stayed busy all day. Just stocking and whatnot. A coworker told me about his job in search and rescue a little bit. My boss mocked me in the break room I think, I think I mumble a lot without knowing. Something to work on I guess. <\/p>\n
I applied for the position last night and have yet to hear back, idk if I will but at least I sent an app. Would increase my income a bit and give me something to do on campus. I enjoy being there more than being at home, anyway. Still need to study for that math class too. <\/p>\n
Not sure if my boss will give me the time off to go to Kumoricon, will be kinda annoying if not as I already bought my badge. I’ll just make up an urgent reason or something or offer to work during the week that week. Maybe he’ll be nice then. I kinda want to do a crossplay, not sure who though. maybe a vtuber? An idol could also be fun! I need to buy *something* to put on my head, at least. <\/p>\n
Pretty much all my idle thoughts are being occupied by the big thing right now. idk… I’m afraid to even write about it. But, I think most normal guys think about it at least somewhat? Like, if I had the chance to change a single cell in the summer of 2002, I’d seriously consider it. But at the same time, I don’t really mind being a guy, being a guy is great. But how can I know that for sure until I walk the path? Maybe I just wanna experience both? Idk. Getting fully feminized and living a life like that just sounds really nice in a non-sexual way. I started letting new people I meet online assume I’m female and I’ve been considering voice training just to play with it a bit, so even if this ultimately amounts to nothing I could get a cool trick out of it. <\/p>\n
Need to start going to the gym too. (I’m not fat just kinda out of shape)<\/p>\n