{"id":42,"date":"2023-10-10T05:51:36","date_gmt":"2023-10-10T05:51:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/2023\/10\/10\/i-feel-like-i-need-to-be-fully-open-for-this-to\/"},"modified":"2023-10-10T05:51:36","modified_gmt":"2023-10-10T05:51:36","slug":"i-feel-like-i-need-to-be-fully-open-for-this-to","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/2023\/10\/10\/i-feel-like-i-need-to-be-fully-open-for-this-to\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I feel like i need to be fully open for this to work&hellip;. <\/p>\n<p>School was fineish, i think the yoga helped calm me down a lot. I was super ticked off about how my math class is going. I get the processes pretty well but my ability to factor is terrible. After I kinda just lingered in the health tech building lobby for 4 hours till I went home. I got some math done but i mostly just thought and played a game called &ldquo;bad ending theater&rdquo;.  I didnt finish it, but its such a pain trying to find a path where everyone stays alive. <\/p>\n<p>Theyve always kinda been there on and off over the years but it was never really what id describe as noteworthy. A fun desire that i thought about sometimes but nothing more. I always kinda intended on exploring that at some point but i was hoping to move out before i truly start to explore. But its not quietly filed away anymore, its been occupying my thoughts constantly now and i want to explore so much, i just dont know how in my current state. <\/p>\n<p>I might write again tonight but idk.<\/p>\n<p>Heres a song: <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=1RQQLwnaw80&amp;list=RDGMEMYH9CUrFO7CfLJpaD7UR85w&amp;index=6\">https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=1RQQLwnaw80&amp;list=RDGMEMYH9CUrFO7CfLJpaD7UR85w&amp;index=6<\/a><\/p>\n<p>Goodnight (maybe?) \ud83d\udc95<\/p>\n<p>-a<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I feel like i need to be fully open for this to work&hellip;. School was fineish, i think the yoga helped calm me down a lot. I was super ticked off about how my math class is going. I get the processes pretty well but my ability to factor is terrible. After I kinda just [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-42","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=42"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/42\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=42"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=42"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=42"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}