Here we are I guess. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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I\u2019m sitting in the shower at the meps hotel, it\u2019s a pretty decent one in downtown Portland. I figured it\u2019d be some shitty airport hotel but it\u2019s not bad. I forgot what I last wrote here so I\u2019ll just write freely I think. I\u2019m also on my phone so it\u2019s gonna be fun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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I swore in today, so yeah I guess I\u2019m government property now. It\u2019s was a really uneventful lead up, took a last minute vacation to Sedona with my dad and sister, flew home (took a Waymo to the airport was really cool) and now I\u2019m here. Leaving my previous workplace was also kinda uneventful. I got my leave approved on their third party app thing and that was all there was to it. No goodbyes or anything like that, I\u2019m just gone now. I\u2019m still being scheduled for some reason though. Discount still works too, went in to buy some underwear last minute and the lady was like \u201cyou still work here?\u201d <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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First night at the hotel was mostly me waiting around, lot of marines. I only spoke to marines the entire time, one didn\u2019t even know which branch he was joining. They threw one in my room at like 9:30 which was pretty annoying but he seemed friendly. Dude was going infantry which I don\u2019t really understand but all the power to him I guess. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Meps was mostly just waiting around and getting my tickets. The swear in ceremony was pretty daunting though but also not. I kinda thought signing my life away would like, feel heavier; but it didn\u2019t. Then we kinda just waited around for 8 hours. I watched some guys play pool but I didn\u2019t join. Lunch was also better than it was last time. Panera like always. Apparently I forgot to put on deodorant but the uso had some for free, it was women\u2019s deodorant but only shit did it work, it was PUNGENT. After a bit they called us out and we left to go back to the hotel. Had my mom pick me up after that and we went out to eat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Dad has Covid so he didn\u2019t come but we went to a brewery nearby, I had some mushroom pasta I already forgot the name of, but it was pretty good. As good as any for a last meal I suppose. She gave me a letter too, I think I\u2019ll read it tomorrow morning. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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It\u2019s a pretty odd feeling, knowing that I don\u2019t really have a choice anymore, even though I feel deep down that it\u2019s the right one. My main fear is washing out of basic. The humiliation would really get to me and I really don\u2019t want that to happen. It\u2019s not like I really have anywhere else to go either. In a lot of ways this is kinda my Hail Mary. Especially considering how last semester went. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I had taken my nail test 3 days ago and failed it just barely (69%) and got wrecked, hoping to retake it when I get back. Also had one of my wisdoms ripped out, it\u2019s somewhat healed now but I really don\u2019t want to risk the clot coming out, apparently the pain is off the charts. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Maybe I\u2019ll write again tomorrow maybe I won\u2019t, we\u2019ll see. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Goodnight \u2764\ufe0f<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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I should probably goon one last time ngl. (Already did) (hour long shower yay!!!)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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