{"id":497,"date":"2026-01-13T00:33:59","date_gmt":"2026-01-13T00:33:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/?p=497"},"modified":"2026-01-29T02:46:42","modified_gmt":"2026-01-29T02:46:42","slug":"here-i-sit","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/2026\/01\/13\/here-i-sit\/","title":{"rendered":"here i sit"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>jan 10 26 10 pm <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>here I sit in the middle of night not feeling far from home, but in reality not far at all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>2025 was an odd year. My life objectively improved tenfold, im at a point now where even if all my ambitions fall through i have a career laid out for me. I live in a new city that i really enjoy. I have more disposable income than i know what to do with. my savings account is larger than its ever been. I have a job that i enjoy. Yet i still kinda feel empty. I think a lot of it comes from the what i already knew would happen, did. I still have no social life and i think I need to begin the process of making peace with the fact that i likely never will. I mean i spent all of 2025 making moves to set up my life to be functional like this. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>whatever,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-a <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>jan 10 26 10 pm here I sit in the middle of night not feeling far from home, but in reality not far at all. 2025 was an odd year. My life objectively improved tenfold, im at a point now where even if all my ambitions fall through i have a career laid out for [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-497","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/497","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=497"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/497\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":502,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/497\/revisions\/502"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=497"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=497"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=497"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}