{"id":50,"date":"2023-09-28T05:29:57","date_gmt":"2023-09-28T05:29:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/2023\/09\/28\/school-could-have-gone-better-missed-my-second\/"},"modified":"2023-09-28T05:29:57","modified_gmt":"2023-09-28T05:29:57","slug":"school-could-have-gone-better-missed-my-second","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/2023\/09\/28\/school-could-have-gone-better-missed-my-second\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>School could have gone better, missed my second class because i misread my schedule. trued to go late but i would have interrupted if i went in so i just left. Math 95 had a sub today and they just lectured for 3 hours.<\/p>\n<p>The feelings keep coming and going, almost like an uncomfortable longing. I dont really know how else to describe it and its coming more and more. This predates my fears about balding but i feel like this worry has sent these feelings into overdrive. I always kinda felt like i had a decent shot at passing if thats the conclusion i came to. So i felt like i could put it off until i moved out to fully explore it. But now i feel like that chance could be ripped away from me at any moment and it makes me want to cry.  <\/p>\n<p>Honestly im not even sure, like this isnt sexual at all and the &ldquo;if i could be reborn id probably be reborn&rdquo; idea has been present in me for as long as i can remember. But at the same time i dont really mind being a guy and i dont want to cry when i look in the mirror. <\/p>\n<p>No lofi track tonight, ive been listening to 2010s hits because it makes me nostalgic. <br \/><a href=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/playlist\/3FeewjLi5LMzIpV4h35QEz?si=14249bdd9fea42e2\">https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/playlist\/3FeewjLi5LMzIpV4h35QEz?si=14249bdd9fea42e2<\/a><\/p>\n<p>Goodnight \u2764\ufe0f<\/p>\n<p>-a<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>School could have gone better, missed my second class because i misread my schedule. trued to go late but i would have interrupted if i went in so i just left. Math 95 had a sub today and they just lectured for 3 hours. The feelings keep coming and going, almost like an uncomfortable longing. [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-50","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=50"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=50"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=50"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eternaluseonly.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=50"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}